Maryann Austin

Least visible were the earth creatures.  One needed only to sweep back the leaves or lift a rock to see them.  But unless looked for, they went unnoticed.  The tiniest of these unseen creatures bore much of the work of the forest.  Little bugs and worms slowly ate their way through the biggest of trees, fallen or upright.  They found almost nothing inedible.  On what scavengers left behind, they would feast, turning dead animals and vegetation into nutrients which the forest would use again and again.  The ground was home to forms of life that most people shrink and recoil from.  Grubs and earthworms, snakes and salamanders slithered and crawled there.   Their slimy city bustled under the leaves, and even beneath the rock on which Jane and William sat.   Copperhead Snakes and Timber Rattlers made their homes here.   William seemed to have a gift for sensing the legless reptiles.  As a very young child, barely old enough to speak, he once warned his mother of an approaching Copperh

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Lackawanna is the word that the native peoples use to describe where two rivers meet.  About a hundred miles to the north and east of the camp at the natural bridge, the mighty Rappahannock meets the Rapidan.  And there, a Brigade of three hundred gathered under the starlight in a place called Hartwood Church, preparing for a long march northward. In this army, the Army of the Potomac, one would notice many more dark faces than would be found at the camp near the James River.  There were a great many Negroes fighting for the Union--and honorably so.  Some were born into freedom, and others had been slaves--and yet others were slaves who absconded from the south.  Wherever they came from, the Union Army welcomed them. They were one with their white northern brothers, fighting alongside and for the same cause.  All prayed to the same God as they marched in to battle.  And still, around the individual campfires at night, white and brown stayed separate.   Funny, because if you w

She loved to see her eyes because she loved the way they looked.  She loved the power that they held.  It was not out of insecurity or a need for reassurance that Jane committed this ritual.  It was out of pure thrill and enjoyment.  She knew that, with her eyes, she could elicit compliance, force intimidation, and very quickly convey excruciating disgust upon someone.  When not engaging in such an expression, the default setting of her gaze was nothingness. Pleased and satisfied with what she saw, Jane returned the mirror to the intended position, able to see what was behind her.  She cared little what was back there.  She cared little about what was before her.  She cared little about anything outside of her own skin or, really, what was beneath it.

These pretty flowers are for any of you who were ever teased or bullied.   I have had technical trouble getting Choking Butterflies onto Barnes and Noble.  There must be some connection with the fact that I was bullied by a boy named Nook. I was in the sixth grade, standing at the bus stop one day, when I suddenly felt a horrible blow to my left temple.  It's funny how we can remember such things so vividly.  I remember which way I was looking, and I remember the way it felt as the softball slammed the side of my head.  Bam.  I went down.  And then I ran home crying.  My house was right across the street. This event must have influenced me in writing Choking Butterflies.  In Chapter Three,  Jane bullies another little girl on the bus. “You are ugly.  You are stupid.  No one likes you.”  It was a song that both girls knew well.  One detested it.  Jane would repeat this verse as long as necessary.   By the first repetition, Kimberly’s heart thumped in her chest.  By th

It was a number a years ago, when I was going through the horror of divorce, that I first realized the importance of keeping track of one’s angels.  I’m referring to the wingless ones who show up at just the right time. At times I kept an actual list.  It came in very handy, and I would often get it out and look at it to remind me that there were still people who cared in the world.  Sometimes absolute strangers wound up on this list, and I would pray that they would somehow be rewarded someday.  Today my angel list is no longer a physical one--but I am in the habit of taking note when such people enter my life, whether long term or for a split second. When I was a kid, the bus stop was right in front of my house.  Where my kids are being raised, it is not that way.  I know many people who travel a couple of miles to get their kids on the bus everyday.  Seems a small thing, right?  Well, throw in work and bad weather, and it becomes a hardship just making sure your child gets t

Journal Entry by a Mother During the Time of the Black Plague More travelers came today.  They clawed at our gates and pleaded for food, but we could not sacrifice our own , nor could we risk exposing ourselves to their wretched disease.  If we will ever be able to venture outside these walls, we do not know.  It is said that the sickness has afflicted most of the village, so we dare not leave nor let anyone in.  The thought of my own children suffering the same hideous fate that has befallen the others is intolerable.  This is why, though it may not seem in accordance with my Christian upbringing, I will continue to turn away and ignore the cries of my neighbors.  I believe that it is the Lord's Will that we escape this black death.  I thank Him each day that in this time of devastation and bereavement, when so much has been taken from so many, my greatest troubles are the fleas in the hair of my children. written when I was Maryann Sekulski The thing that made this